That's the question that's going through my head lately.
Why is this happening? What have I done to deserve this?
We had such a great relationship; we were working through all the obstacles life was throwing our way and now this? I just don't understand. No one does. Friends and family are reaching out to me just in complete shock. They are just as confused as I am, but mad. They're mad for me. Sure, I get mad sometimes, but mainly I'm sad. I'm disappointed. I'm just... going through hell.
He was/is my best friend. We shared SO much together. We had the strongest bond, the best chemistry out of anyone I knew. I cherished everything about him. The things that have been happening are so out of the blue, so... strange.
Five years of being together and it's taken not even two months to get into another relationship. You'll hear me say it over and over again, I just don't get it.
I went on two dates, but the truth is, I don't know how to date. I don't want to date. My life was settling, even with his son. I don't know life without Kenny, as pathetic as you may think that sounds. I know you're all probably thinking I sound like a desparate crazy person, but if you only knew how much we've been through together. I'm scared that I won't find happiness again without him. He's the love I want to be in.
Why is God doing this to me? Why couldn't we have the happy ever after that we had planned and dreamt of, which included Wyatt as a part of our lives? What have I done to deserve all this to happen to me?
I don't know that I have the strength to get through this. I really don't.
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10 comments:
((Hugs)) You do not get over 5 years quickly. But you deserve love and to be loved by someone who wants to give YOU their whole heart. I mean it. You may not be ready to date yet, grieve and then look towards a future of making YOU happy.
I'm so sorry to hear that.. not that it's any consolation, but I feel the same way about my 3-year relationship that just ended out of the blue too. It's so hard. I can only imagine how much harder it would be with a child. I know things will get better, I just wish we could heal faster and get on with our lives. Just feel normal again. I'm so sorry you're going through this.
xo
MacKensie
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I don't think anybody can blame you for not being able to let go like he was just some one night stand. You have a lot of emotions involved in that relationship... your mind body and soul are all so invested. Of course you are feeling weak and don't know how you can get out of bed in the morning, but that's what your friends and family are for. To keep your head above water.
I know it's not easy and hard to even imagine right now but I promise you will come out of this situation stronger and more fabulous than you already are. It sucks to hear but everything happens for a reason...and you will be happy again. It just takes time. You have to mourn what you have lost and eventually you will feel like you can move on. As I said before, let me know if you need anything or want to talk.
Just read your last few posts about the Ex! I'm so sorry girl! Sounds like he has a lot of growing up to do. You absolutely are being the bigger, mature person and you do deserve answers, but I promise that there is light at the end of the tunnel! Definitely keep yourself busy with friends and family until your strong enough to start dating again! hang in there xoxo
Kristine! Keep your head up. You are an amazing girl. I hope you find all the answers he has left you without, I'm sure you will in due time. I wish there was something more I could do for you to help comfort you! Just remember that you have MANY people who care about you, and they want to see you get through this and be a better person because of it. You are great. I love you!
I was signed onto the wrong account, the "lauren" comment is me. :)
So, it's easy for someone on the outside to say, "Buck up, sister. Put on your big girl panties and deal."
Cut to you flying to Texas to help your baby cousin buy a wedding dress while Adele comes on the iPod, you can't change it and you're sobbing. By yourself. Having a flight attendant asking if you're OK and you can only look up and tell her that you have a broken heart and it hurts to think and breathe.
Just me?
But honestly, you're in the dark days. We all have them. I can't tell you when you'll see the light, but God wouldn't bring you to it if you couldn't get through it. Each day, you'll grow a little bit stronger. That little hole will start to fill and you'll start to feel "normal". It'll come, but not this instant.
You are a wonderful person. I'm so sorry that you're hurting right now...you deserve better. (((HUGS)))
Having your heartbroken is terrible thing and even though most people have it done to them every situation is different. Reading these posts makes me think of the song by Brantly Gilbert-You don't know her like i do...look it up, almost sums up how your saying. I hope it gets better for you hun
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