That's the question that's going through my head lately.
Why is this happening? What have I done to deserve this?
We had such a great relationship; we were working through all the obstacles life was throwing our way and now this? I just don't understand. No one does. Friends and family are reaching out to me just in complete shock. They are just as confused as I am, but mad. They're mad for me. Sure, I get mad sometimes, but mainly I'm sad. I'm disappointed. I'm just... going through hell.
He was/is my best friend. We shared SO much together. We had the strongest bond, the best chemistry out of anyone I knew. I cherished everything about him. The things that have been happening are so out of the blue, so... strange.
Five years of being together and it's taken not even two months to get into another relationship. You'll hear me say it over and over again, I just don't get it.
I went on two dates, but the truth is, I don't know how to date. I don't want to date. My life was settling, even with his son. I don't know life without Kenny, as pathetic as you may think that sounds. I know you're all probably thinking I sound like a desparate crazy person, but if you only knew how much we've been through together. I'm scared that I won't find happiness again without him. He's the love I want to be in.
Why is God doing this to me? Why couldn't we have the happy ever after that we had planned and dreamt of, which included Wyatt as a part of our lives? What have I done to deserve all this to happen to me?
I don't know that I have the strength to get through this. I really don't.